~3 things that i regret in my life~

there are 3 thing that i absolutely regret for wat i did so far in my life...

first- the day when i hurt my best friend feelings..i really made her cried that day..n i really really regreted it till now..im the one who built the wall between us n we just.........not contacted each other that much as we usually did anymore..im afraid that i might hurt her again without me noticing it..Im really srry..though she said she'd forgiven me, i still couldnt forgive myself for hurting her..

second- for not study really well for SPM..(to obsessed with football at that time..told ya im easily obsessed with sumthin ^^) but theres no use to regret bout it actually haha n i kinda regret that i took science stream..physics, bio n chem is just not for me..so when my frens talk bout it i just went hmmm..^^ i was born for artistry stuff haha XD

third- for not workin the entire year..(when i told my parents i wanna work they just ignore me n never help me in findin one) btw i stayed at home doin chores and stuff...that was okay coz i thought i was helpin my family at least...but not until my sis said just now that i actually DIDNT do anythin in this house n that all i do is online..but that sentence freakin make me mad! n this is not the first time...like seriously..she dunno how at least to appreciate me for i was the one who wash her clothes, clean up our room..n not to mention i wash the dishes..i do all of this EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR A YEAR!! (im totally not lying) n wat? did she expect me to just doin the work all the time even when they are all (my 2 sis) around? cant she just..no..not only her, cant my family just appreciate me a bit...im sad ya kno..i felt really hurt when she said those things..it really does feels like i've been stabbed by a knife through my heart..it hurts..n its like what i've done in this house is unnoticable n doesnt made any difference..sometimes when they come back home the house is clean, n when they went to work the next mornin the house is in mess..thats wat happened in my house everday n that is when my regular routine will begin everday too..really..sometimes i feel like im a 'maid' of this family n just wanna run away for a while but i cant..apart from this i do love them..but just a word thank you or show some appreciations can make me all happy inside..all i want is them to appreciate me... thats all..

srry for the crap im talkin..its just that im totally like sad rite now n theres no one for me to talk to unless i let it all out rite here..(hope none of my family members reading this if so im srry but this is really wat i felt rite now)..
*cries at the corner* T_T